Bullshit here

Sometimes I am astonished the power of market.
That it can make an individual power so weak .
If the majority like talking something about A
People who talk about B will be marginalized.
If the majority embrace to wear red trousers
People who wear other will be recognized as odd.
Trend is created by majority I think .
Effiency is archieved by meeting stardand . That is quality management .
But however, human character should be different so there will be more possibilities in human.
But now , even character qualities could be directed by market force .
Individual power seemed so insignicant .
I am sad and frustrated about it . The meaning of some terms could be very suspicious.

Charming
Could it mean that people who has the quality which will not discover any problems in person ?

Passion
Could it mean that people who just devote all energy emotions without purpose ?

你會唔會諗太多呀?
Is it to encourge us keep our eyes blind and stop any kind of discovery ?

你唔係以為自己係點點點....
Is it to encourgae us not to live to be different ?

I want to write .
I want to say .
But from my experience , those are just too heavy .
So what can I do ?
Bullshit here.

Fuck is such a powerful word.
so I can express my powerlessness through this word Fuck.

People who have thoughts are more difficult to change according to the market needs.
So a fool can be some very successful people because they can be so " flexible "
People who have self-consciouness will suffer sometimes like investing stock but cannot sell it.
These people will suffer according to market fluatutions.
But at long as they invest their thoughts right , they will benefit more than people who just follow the market trend. I hope .
A friend told me
" The more you know , the more you read , the more you are in the abyss of loneliness "

I do not want to betray myself cause I think I know myself .
But what can you do with yourself with the environment who only need money ?
Shit.Fuck.

I need to create and act to it. It is not easy . But I will try .
Others say everybody feels uncomfortable with new environment .
Yes, but I have never feel that uncomfortable before.
Life in HKU is good . But not enough for me .
I need more conversations to refresh my life.

Fair

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
Can you tell me is this fair?

Mercy

How can you keep specialize in the way you would like to go ?
Deepen what you really love to have ?
No one know is it the right choice ?
Yeah , give it a try , but way too difficult to do for me.
Yeah. Get a better life in your own way . Celebrate others people lives and create mine

You nerver know .
Way too difficult to guess .
Way too difficult .
Way too difficult .

University is the last transfer terminal .
People have their last call for what they go .
It is just not enough time to pack all things for me .
Some people made it good .Some people made it better .
I am going to bet on my own .


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Oh it's a mystery to me.
We have a greed, with which we have agreed...
and you think you have to want more than you need...
until you have it all, you won't be free.

Knowledge vs Grade ?
Friends vs Social Networking ?
Love vs Desire indugence vs Exit ?
Inspiring vs Unclear ?
Simple vs Easy ?
Certifications vs Labels ?

"I hope you're not lonely, without me.
I hope you're not angry, if I disagree."

Anyway,make it mine do my stuff.

I have to write it down
Because I am afraid one day I would not hear my own voice ever again.

Learning

Is Lying a way to Escape ?

There are things that we do not able to understand .
However , I beleive most of the things can be explained.
Yes. I beleive that.

But do you really want the truth ?
Truth is harsh in some way because you will see something you scare , you are anxious.

Why things which seemed very difficult to comprehend were labelled as inspiring ?
If some people commented my post difficult to understand
It is my fault of not written simple and concise.

All kinds of labels on the streets waiting people to pick and stick onto themselves .

Even books can be labels. Sometimes I see people carrying bags with empty spaces insists carrying their Law Books in hand.

Yes , with arguemts you may be able to defend yourself .
But somehow , you cannot convince ( or lie ? ) to all people .
I don't want labels. I need the real you behind the labels.
I just need the real you.

I always beleive it is unavoidable to cause some unintended offenses to be interesting.
Let me figure it out .

Don't know why

Once I said I will write much more frequently.
But I stopped for a long time writing down something.
It is because my language mastering ability is poor which I don't want to showing series of errors.
Writing should not be taken too casual.

I am now having workshops training until late June.
Groups and divided and learning inside a training room .
Some people said it is boring.
I did not attend the course very seriously.
Chatting around with people just like I am in secondary school time.
Though we need get up early, but I have funny feeling for this training

What that special ?
I wonder I feel comfortable with that .
Chatting , secret talks , borrowing things , listening attentively ......


What that special ?
It is because during the workshop
I feel like a student in a co-education school , which is............ I don't know what to say.
Funny, I guess.
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Start from zero

當其他人都好像在努力為自己的大學生活去做很多的事時.
都現在我才了解到大學是什麼.
經過了中學,小學如坐電梯一樣的一直向上.到了大學,一下子自由起來.
要做什麼不是一下子想得到.
為了入名牌大學以為就可有美好前途.只就好像買了 Gucci 就自以為是有氣質.

這一刻我感到的是自己很不足.不是自卑.而是有太多不了解的事了.

"你不是這三年就這樣讀書吧?"
這是一個我不上 A 莊後, 一個上莊同我講的.
"你有沒想過大學是社會的縮影,總有一日你要學習."
這是一個我不上 B 莊後, 一個上莊同我講的.
"如果你是為了自己的話,對不起,上莊不適合你"
這是一個我不上 C 莊後, 一個上莊同我講的.

他們說的話都有他們的意思. 為社會做好準備是要的.
不過社會的現實不同大學的環境.
學會打射擊電子遊戲不一定就可以去打仗.
我沒有做全部大家認為要在大學要做的事.
只知道大家都有大家的學習方式.沒有好壞.只有適合與否.
只要不用一種 "等我塞錢入你袋" 的態度與我交談就可以了.

一個人的時間用在什麼地方是看得見的.
不一定是成績高低.不一定是外表好壞.

我相信是看得見的

Shining Aura

Examinations time table has out .
May 13 will be the last day for exams.
So close, there are only a month to grow. Lots of things need to finish.
And there are lots of thing I want to do.
Time is very limited. But that is not a bad thing , so we can priortise our time , and see what we value most in our heart.

Economics teaches us information cost is good to be zero.
But I think sometimes it is better to leave some layers so there will be areas for us to imagine.
If all things disclosed, that will definitely a boring situation.

Today was the Inter-hall dancing competition. I did take to look for some of them
Girls are pretty , I mean some . Costume are well-designed.
Dancing in the centre of the Haking Wong Podium, having glaced by thousands pairs of eyes.
Dancers must have a sudden impulse of self-confidence running through their bodies.
Being stared and became the centre of peoples' attentions is fascinating, right ?

Have you meet any odd guys ?
They also put themselves into the centre of attention.
But people don't yell for them , what they can recieve are ignorance.

Watching those stars really make us feel inferior.
But why bother? Maybe this is the time to create your own way of living.

Glad that I am not those popular people inside a group.
So I can meet people who are very interesting but are not shine because of others attention.
So I can get closer to them and have a real interaction.
So I can just reach them without serious of work to look through their shining auras.