Mercy

How can you keep specialize in the way you would like to go ?
Deepen what you really love to have ?
No one know is it the right choice ?
Yeah , give it a try , but way too difficult to do for me.
Yeah. Get a better life in your own way . Celebrate others people lives and create mine

You nerver know .
Way too difficult to guess .
Way too difficult .
Way too difficult .

University is the last transfer terminal .
People have their last call for what they go .
It is just not enough time to pack all things for me .
Some people made it good .Some people made it better .
I am going to bet on my own .


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Oh it's a mystery to me.
We have a greed, with which we have agreed...
and you think you have to want more than you need...
until you have it all, you won't be free.

Knowledge vs Grade ?
Friends vs Social Networking ?
Love vs Desire indugence vs Exit ?
Inspiring vs Unclear ?
Simple vs Easy ?
Certifications vs Labels ?

"I hope you're not lonely, without me.
I hope you're not angry, if I disagree."

Anyway,make it mine do my stuff.

I have to write it down
Because I am afraid one day I would not hear my own voice ever again.

Learning

Is Lying a way to Escape ?

There are things that we do not able to understand .
However , I beleive most of the things can be explained.
Yes. I beleive that.

But do you really want the truth ?
Truth is harsh in some way because you will see something you scare , you are anxious.

Why things which seemed very difficult to comprehend were labelled as inspiring ?
If some people commented my post difficult to understand
It is my fault of not written simple and concise.

All kinds of labels on the streets waiting people to pick and stick onto themselves .

Even books can be labels. Sometimes I see people carrying bags with empty spaces insists carrying their Law Books in hand.

Yes , with arguemts you may be able to defend yourself .
But somehow , you cannot convince ( or lie ? ) to all people .
I don't want labels. I need the real you behind the labels.
I just need the real you.

I always beleive it is unavoidable to cause some unintended offenses to be interesting.
Let me figure it out .

Don't know why

Once I said I will write much more frequently.
But I stopped for a long time writing down something.
It is because my language mastering ability is poor which I don't want to showing series of errors.
Writing should not be taken too casual.

I am now having workshops training until late June.
Groups and divided and learning inside a training room .
Some people said it is boring.
I did not attend the course very seriously.
Chatting around with people just like I am in secondary school time.
Though we need get up early, but I have funny feeling for this training

What that special ?
I wonder I feel comfortable with that .
Chatting , secret talks , borrowing things , listening attentively ......


What that special ?
It is because during the workshop
I feel like a student in a co-education school , which is............ I don't know what to say.
Funny, I guess.
.

Start from zero

當其他人都好像在努力為自己的大學生活去做很多的事時.
都現在我才了解到大學是什麼.
經過了中學,小學如坐電梯一樣的一直向上.到了大學,一下子自由起來.
要做什麼不是一下子想得到.
為了入名牌大學以為就可有美好前途.只就好像買了 Gucci 就自以為是有氣質.

這一刻我感到的是自己很不足.不是自卑.而是有太多不了解的事了.

"你不是這三年就這樣讀書吧?"
這是一個我不上 A 莊後, 一個上莊同我講的.
"你有沒想過大學是社會的縮影,總有一日你要學習."
這是一個我不上 B 莊後, 一個上莊同我講的.
"如果你是為了自己的話,對不起,上莊不適合你"
這是一個我不上 C 莊後, 一個上莊同我講的.

他們說的話都有他們的意思. 為社會做好準備是要的.
不過社會的現實不同大學的環境.
學會打射擊電子遊戲不一定就可以去打仗.
我沒有做全部大家認為要在大學要做的事.
只知道大家都有大家的學習方式.沒有好壞.只有適合與否.
只要不用一種 "等我塞錢入你袋" 的態度與我交談就可以了.

一個人的時間用在什麼地方是看得見的.
不一定是成績高低.不一定是外表好壞.

我相信是看得見的

Shining Aura

Examinations time table has out .
May 13 will be the last day for exams.
So close, there are only a month to grow. Lots of things need to finish.
And there are lots of thing I want to do.
Time is very limited. But that is not a bad thing , so we can priortise our time , and see what we value most in our heart.

Economics teaches us information cost is good to be zero.
But I think sometimes it is better to leave some layers so there will be areas for us to imagine.
If all things disclosed, that will definitely a boring situation.

Today was the Inter-hall dancing competition. I did take to look for some of them
Girls are pretty , I mean some . Costume are well-designed.
Dancing in the centre of the Haking Wong Podium, having glaced by thousands pairs of eyes.
Dancers must have a sudden impulse of self-confidence running through their bodies.
Being stared and became the centre of peoples' attentions is fascinating, right ?

Have you meet any odd guys ?
They also put themselves into the centre of attention.
But people don't yell for them , what they can recieve are ignorance.

Watching those stars really make us feel inferior.
But why bother? Maybe this is the time to create your own way of living.

Glad that I am not those popular people inside a group.
So I can meet people who are very interesting but are not shine because of others attention.
So I can get closer to them and have a real interaction.
So I can just reach them without serious of work to look through their shining auras.

Supply & Demand

Recently, I have skipped one of the assignments which contribute to 1% for a course.
In the past, I would tried hard to hand in assigments, finding source or do it myself.
But I skipped the assigments. In the past I would have handed them in , however I really find that assigment not quite meaningful but only to have a grade.
What do you think about it ?
Lazy ? Not working hard ? Eascape from challenge ?
There are so many interpretations for a single event. Just too many.
When I take a look to others , they are demanding they are not working hard enough.
They said they will find their dreams, make it to reality. They feel they have to change.
Those passion turns into quotations.,with different words but similar meaning.

Once I was a person claiming quotations to remind myself to improve.

Change.Change.Change. I have heard that so many time.
Be yourself. Be yourself. Be yourself . I have heard that so many time.
Work hard.Work hard. Work hard. I have heard that so many time.
I have found that encouraging people do not need to know that person.
But mere a quotations maybe enough
If you know a person can only give you a mere quotation to encourage you
Can you still be encouraged ?
If you hear a statement that can just be said by any people ,
Can you still be inspired ?

After the changing layout of facebook , there are so many news feed with thousands of quizzes.
I did not take them. But I have seen that they are all praising results.
Your IQ is high. You will earn a lot. You are a special one.
What does it mean ? Do you like them ?

I always hope to provide alternate way to think.
Trying to bring some discussions so we could learn and grow together.
But maybe not all people need them.
Maybe what they need is a simple add oil which can be supplied by almost anyone.
But maybe only ourself can solve our problems.
Maybe. I guess.

Change .
What change ? Change from where ? Why you want to change ?
What you want after change ?
Work hard.
Work hard for what ? Do the work really worth to devote so many energy to it ?
What will you really get to work hard ?
Be yourself.
What force you not allowing you to be yourself ? Who are you ? Do you know much about you ?

If I ask those question to a people who need help.
My questions definitely a bad choice to encourage.

Songs

I have listened to many artists songs during the last few years. I have listened from Hip Hop to classical in the past. Eminem , 50 cents , Justin Timberlake , Mika , Akon , John Mayer , Westlife, Simple Plan , ColdPlay, U2 , Keane , Jonas Brothers. Also I listended to many Canto-pop songs which are popular and greatest hits .I tried to listen as many so to search for something I really like.
Finally after these long long period of searching with my ears.
I have found the one I really like so much .

That is Jack Johnson and Jason Mraz. First , Jack Johnson , then Jason Mraz.

I once like Westlife. But not that indulge to their music though I love the Love Album.
I once like Mika , however , I just like a few songs in the whole albums.
I like Eason Chan , but his songs always make me emotional in some way
I once like U2. But I have to look through the lyrics before listening.

Their songs not simply love indulgence or expressing of regrets of concern. I feel a sense of kids like but deep understanding of feels. I find meanings from their songs . Their songs are a major parts in my MP3 players.
Finding singers sharing or expressing something you are thinking is just...... good.

Take some time. See whether you will like it .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHnJGXwr-HU - Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2UbT3U-fQt4 - Jack Johnson - Angel +Better Together